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I HAVE A TAIL! 

I really can’t believe it,
I truly, really can’t
After many years of trying,
Many years wishing loud!
I finally have a tail
And I am very proud!

I really couldn’t believe it
When my tail showed up!
Now I can show it off to everyone!
Flick it on things when I’m mad!
I can even swish it in circles,
Even get it stuck under the bed!

I have a tail
And I love it very much!
I can chase it when I’m bored,
Rub it on everything around!

Its just like my kitty’s
Which makes it even neater!
We have lots of things in common
But our tails are the bestest!

Someone I knew only in passing,
But who had a soul of pure love,
Has finally past into the next…
To await those she left behind.
I shed a tear not for her loss,
For I know that we will see her in time,
But for the reason she was taken young…
And her soul had years to go.
I know inside that life goes on,
and I hope my friends can brave this storm…
Dear Deborah also known as Diva
We will surely feel your loss.

At last may you rest
At peace from pain
Our dear friend and warrior
We shall meet again.

The Different Bear

There once was a teddy bear who was different
Some would say he was rather weird!
He acted different to the other teddies…
He liked things that they thought were strange.

The other teddies use to laugh at him
They would say mean words and call him names.
They never use to talk with him…
So he was very lonely most days.

All he wanted was a friend,
And he didn’t understand at all,
Why do these teddies not like him?
He is always nice to them all…

He tried to change it by acting different,
But it just didn’t work
He found himself uncomfortable,
And just didn’t feel himself

Then he tried saying nice words,
Telling them really nice things…
But the other teddy bears just ignored him.
And it did not seem to help a bit.

He even tried by giving gifts
To make them play with him more,
But they would just take them all
And not even say thank you once.

Next he tried by sharing his lunch
But they would just eat it all
Then he would get so very hungry
And be sad even more…

It seemed that no matter what he did
Nothing seemed to work
They just didn’t want to be his friend
But to him there was no explanation.

Why do they not like  me?
He thought to himself…
Was it cause I did something wrong?
I have always have tried to be a good teddy,
I have always followed the rules.

What the sad teddy bear didn’t know
Was that he was acting different…
Or at least different to the other bears he was,
To himself he was acting normal.
He liked to dress up in pretty things
Or as animals or super heroes!
He liked to wear bows and pretty ribbons,
Even dresses and silly hats.

The other teddy bears thought this was wrong
“Boy bears shouldn’t wear those things” they said
So they decided he was very bad,
Without even getting to know him.

So after trying so many times,
The different bear decided he had tried to much…
He stopped trying to make friends
And he began to be himself…

Playing with any toy he wished,
Dressing up in fun things,
Not paying attention to what others said
Because he just wanted to be a happy bear…

One day when he was older,
A new teddy bear came to visit
It didn’t think like the other teddy bears,
It was a very pretty girl bear!

She went over to him and asked to play!
His eyes went wide, excited and bright!
He showed the girl bear all the toys!
And they played happily for the entire day!

That night the different bear went to sleep,
And he smiled so very, very big
He said to himself so loudly to himself
“There is a bear out there for everyone,
Sometimes you just have to wait.”

Today is just another day
The same as yesterday
Tomorrow, the next day.

And as another day,
The same rules apply…
Those laws you should be following everyday of your life!

Show those around you, you love them so,
Care for others, even strangers you don’t know!
Respect whats around you, and take only what you need,

But most of all, and you must believe me…
Cast no judgement on others, no ignorance to different
Be yourself always, no matter what struggles.

Happy Mummys Day !!

Some people can paint,
Or Design a car!
Some can even Sew dresses!
Or just care for others!

These words of ours,
Are so very special.
There are so many ways
We can speak about our journeys.

Because no one was able to help me find an artist for Earthquack story or any of my other stories, and no one was able to help me figure out how to self publish. I am giving up on it for now It is my dream to have some books one day, but currently without help thats not possible. I am getting very depressed having emails unreplied to, having people tell me things that make me very hopeful only to have nothing come from them and most of all very upset with having people say they will help but not be able to.

Not naming anyone in particular ! So no one feel bad ok! I have emailed 100s of people trying to get help to do this but I couldn’t. Its my fault anyway, because I can’t draw.

So since its become frustrating and exhausting and I am getting mouth sores from getting upset and grumpy all the time. I think giving up is healthiest thing to do.

I hope everyone is ok with that ! Maybe one day I will try again, But sadly without an artist/illustrator its just to hard.

I do have hopes for one story that I never put on my blog, that my best friend in Alaska who has many goats is working on for me! If she is able to finish the illustrations and mail them to me I will work on getting that into a book, but I will wait for her to finish in her own time and just keep writing as I use to for now.

THANKS EVERYONE FOR YOUR WONDERFUL SUPPORT!!!!

Especially those who have been buying my poems online.

Always Waiting

I sit at this empty table, waiting for my angel.
I know that she will not come, so why do I sit and wait?
Time is slowly moving against me, perhaps I should move on with life?
No, what if she comes while I leave?
I must stay… just in case.
So here I sit, at this empty table…
Waiting for this angel.
But I know that she will not come, so why do I sit and wait?
This empty table… alone and cold, my eyes in ache for sleep.
With tears and silence creeping in…
I  will wait our my days.

If anyone spots any mistakes let me know in the comments below so I can fix them.

The Sickness

It all started with a cough
And from the nose a sniffle or two.
As Queen Helen from Fort Goat
Shivered rather blue,
To all around her it was obvious
But it was from Prince Epic Possibly a Moose
That at last she was told so bluntly..
A very icky truth.

“You, my dear Queen Helen…
I believe are very sick it seems.
I wonder what you have…
I hope it doesn’t pass to me”

She thought upon this deeply,
But finally she agreed,
She didn’t know how,
And she didn’t know why
What she did know,
Was she was sick alright…

She stumbled with a sore head,
That was now burning hot…
Towards her royal bed she went,
She flopped down on the covers
And snuggled down to rest.

As days slowly passed,
Her sickness seemed to grow.
All of Fort Goat began to worry,
Something had to be done…
And soon!

So a meeting was called,
And all of Fort Goat were present
They chatted out ideas
Of how to fix the sickness,
Some said to send her up to the moon
Other goats said to give her hay and straw
But it was Princess Matilda Goat
Who had the best idea of all!

“We should send out a messenger…
Someone to our neighbors!
We should get the best doctors
From the best places ever”

Sheila Puppy Dog raised her paw
She liked wandering around,
This was a Job that she was made for!
She volunteered with a bark!
All of them nodded and agreed
There would be an epic journey
To stop queen Helen feeling icky!

And so it began,
On a morning cold
Sheila Puppy left Fort Goat,
On the most amazing journey of them all!
To search for the cure
Or a doctor or three
Who could stop Queen Helens sickness
And make her as she use to be!

Sheila Puppys first stop was MattyLand of course
Where she consulted with Matty on how to solve this problem,
Matty with a nod, listened to the plea
Then ordered Doctor Polar Long Scarf Bear to travel with Sheila

Sheila Puppy and Doctor Polar Long Scarf Bear,
Then headed on with their quest,
The next  stop, naturally the Kingdom of Bedroom… of course.
Sheila Puppy being a dog had to take caution.
For it was ruled by a Kitty
And one who knew she was royal,

She requested an Audience, to a rather Sinister Quacky-Eyed Duck,
And after a long wait, Her Highness showed up,
To the sound of trumpets
Princess Nom Nom Booksitting Bagsleeping Fattycat Swishytail The First
Spoke with poor Sheila, who was rather nervous.

They spoke for a while
The Princess Kitty Cat listened,
They spoke about mice, chickens, bunnys and dinner
Then at last they spoke about the cure,
To help Queen Helen get better,
And then her Highness made a decision, and said rather pleased

“I will come,
No one is smarter than me,
I will solve her sickness,
I can solve everything”

So with her Highness, the Princess Kitty,
And Doctor Polar Long Scarf Bear, From the wonderful Land of Matty,
Sheila Puppy then headed to the great land of Pigglylot,
A place where one can be trapped,
By the taste so fantastical

For you see Pigglylot
Was ruled by Lord PigPigalot!
A Pig who liked eating… more than anyone!
His kingdom was full of an assortment of food
From the furtherest lands,
And the closest to!

Doctor Polar Long Scarf Bear, Princess Nom Nom and Sheila,
arrived at the Kingdom and went straight to its castle!
They were enticed every turn by foods so delicious,
Her Highness the Kitty demanded a taste of everything.

But at last after time, they made their way to the Ruler
They were granted an audience, which started with snorting.
Lord PigPigalot listened, all bout the Sickness,
He knew Queen Helen, for her goats liked eating.

“I have just the Cure!”

Was what was said in excitement!
Lord PigPigalot then handed over…
A bar of delicious chocolate.

“This will fix everything,
It does magical things,
Our supply is huge since the Hopaclypse been”

Sheila Puppy accepted the chocolate with a nod
“I heard this stuff taste better than ice cream” she continued on
The three then left, for their last destination,
Not letting Lord PigPigalot know where they were heading ,
For they didn’t want to cause a fight,
As an ongoing war was being fought between the two places!

Where they were going, had a great history of genius,
It was the much famed Pirate University for Zebras!
Looked after by the talented Dr Captain Lucia,
Not a medical doctor but a scientist of brilliance!

When they reached the ship,
That was driving on land?
They went on board to a rather happy “YArrghhhh”!
Led by pirate Zebras to Dr Captain Lucia,
Who wasn’t very Zebra like… but thats a story for another time.

Sheila Puppy told her about the sickness of Queen Helen,
Dr Captain Lucia Listened
As Sheila Puppy talked
Nodding her head she said

“I know exactly whats wrong”

She called her favorite Pirate Zebra…
Who wasn’t a Zebra at all!

It was a very hairy puppy dog…
Whose name was Muri Licksnoses Sniffalot, The First, Second and Third!,
She was very famous and well known, in lands far, wide and close.
As she held a degree in licking noses, sniffing things and tennis balls.

Muri was ordered to join the band
Which was now a fellowship from the Kingdoms so grand!
With Doctor Polar Long Scarf Bear from the great MattyLand,
And the Princess Kitty from the Kingdom of Bedroom!
A bar of chocolate from Pigglylot,
And now Muri Licksnoses Sniffalot The First, Second and Third from the Pirate University for Zebras

The group then began their journey back.
They borrowed a ship, that drove on land?
When reaching Fort Goat, where Queen Helen was sick
A red Carpet was laid out, on the insistance of a Princess kitty.

Sheila Puppy then began to rush to Queen Helen!
The whole group followed, it was all quite exciting.
When they reached royal bed, Where Queen Helen was resting
They were greeted by Princess Matilda Goat,
Who said rather relieved.

“Your here at last, and you brought smarts!!
Please help her get better,
Shes the Royal organizer of lunch!!!”

The group peered down,
At Queen Helen so sick,
Sheila Puppy looked at them,
Ok lets fix this!

They first gave her chocolate,
From the great  land of Pigglylot
Queen Helen ate it, but it didn’t seem to help.

“That didn’t work”

All said rather shocked,
As Lord PigPigalot had told them it would.

“Step aside”

Said Her Highness the Princess kitty,

“I am Princess Nom Nom Booksitting Bagsleeping Fattycat Swishytail The First
I can solve anything, I am the smartest and best there is.”

And all watched, in anticipation…
As the Princess Kitty stepped close
She peered at Queen Helen,
Looking up and down a lot,

“The cure for her sickness is…”

And everyone went quiet.
Waiting and hoping…

“Licking your tail!”

She exclaimed. And rather proudly.
Everyone just blinked,
As Queen Helen had no tail to lick
So the only cure there was,
Just wouldn’t work.

Muri Licksnoses Sniffalot, The First, Second and Third!,
From the Pirate University for Zebras,
Then stepped forward!
Her degree and genius was showing right away
As she poked out her long tongue huffing and panting!

“I will fix this problem,
I am a Pirate Zebra
I learned all about sickness,
While getting my degree at Pirate University!”

All looked at the hairy puppy
With much hope and excitement,

“That hairy puppy will definitely cure Queen Helen”

They whispered, as she stepped closer!
Looking Queen Helen right in the eyes,
She took a breath,
Then out came her tongue
Icky and wet, covered in slobber!
She licked Queen Helens nose…
Then silence…
…
…
“Did it work?”

Asked Princess Matilda Goat
and they all leaned close,
But then Queen Helen sniffled her nose,
And all the onlookers pouted.

Then last of all,
Doctor Polar Long Scarf Bear stepped forward,
With a sigh he said,

“I will try my best like the rest,
but I will make no promises”

He inspected Queen Helen,
He looked her up and down,
Feeling her head,
He concluded it hot…
He thought for a minute,
As he was watched…

“I know whats wrong”

He said,
After a long time in thought….

“WHAT!!!”

They all said in reply…
Well all but the Princess Kitty
She knew what was wrong,
Queen Helen had no tail…
She thought it was shocking.

Doctor Polar Long Scarf Bear looked at them all
He cleared his throat
“hur-humm” He went before beginning to talk.

“My Dear friends,
This is a very simple thing…
What we are seeing is a very logical sickness,
Look where we are,
In the beautiful Fort Goat…
Queen Helen has a simple case…
Of Goatamorphia.”

“Goat-a-what”

Said those all watching
Tilting there heads,
They were rather confuzzled.

“Goatamorphia…
Its a terrible thing
Its what one catches when around goats all year.
It starts with the nose,
It begins to sniffle.
Then you start coughing,
And your head starts burning.

Next thing you grow horns,
And your voice turns to ‘Maaaaaaa’
You start thinking about food,
All day and all night.

Then at last you grow hoofs,
And then a lot of hair,
You start to grow a small tail,
And feel like twirling in a circle!

But I have some good news,
Yes I do…
If Queen Helen rests soundly,
She will be cured.
It can be contagious,
At least if your not a goat…
So I suggest we just be patient,
She will get better by herself!”

There was quite a lot of oh’s and ah’s
As Sheila Puppy, Princess Matilda Goat,
Princess Nom Nom Booksitting Bagsleeping Fattycat Swishytail The First,
And Muri Licksnoses Sniffalot The First Second and Third
listened to the talk, from the Doctor Polar Long Scarf Bear.

They all then quietly left the room,
Leaving Queen Helen to rest,
Princess Mailda Goat looked relieved,
Queen Helen would be okay!

They all headed to the Ship,
Which drove on land?
Princess Matilda Goat and Sheila Puppy,
Said goodbye to their friends.

And then off to the distance,
The ship quietly went,
A Princess Kitty could be seen in the back,
Already sleeping…

“What a long day said Sheila Puppy,
With quite a yawn…
I hope I never get Goatamorphia,
It really sounds horrible”

That Dream

He who dreamed loudly
Dreamed a dream so wonderful
That life became dull.